1. so much love.
2. "the eternal homelessness of the spirit" - christmas eve service.
3. maybe i'll be a doctor! a super queer, queer-gay-trans-friendly, traveling punk of a doctor. i will cure your diseases while critiquing the christian-influenced figural interpretation that is "medical fact."
4. i could believe in a god to improve my faith in myself...not for jesus though, fuck that shit
4.5. i'm not afraid of intimacy!
4.75. i know more about alternative menstrual products than my gynecologist...yessssss
5. my sister is awesome
6. so is my bro
7. my dad is driving me to school and offered to help me build some shit in my room...what a buddy
8. where the fuck did this high-flying mood come from?
9.
oh well i'll roll with it



happy chanukah, solstice, winter break, seasonal holidays, thursday and a merry christmas to all, and to all a good night.

there is something very unnerving about having a "nuclear" family
it seems like an explosive possibility.

1. i LOVE rereading old emails. i just cleaned out my inbox and it felt like scraping dust out of my heartbox...so much cleaner. so much history and all the primary documents are right there. i just relived this summer and last year, all the late homework assignments and money transfers and wg-searching...oh my, oh my.

2. i had a long talk with my sister who is turning out to be a fucking sweet person. about the ages of peoples' spirits and how we would raise our children (/have children) and compassion vs passion and the first of many conversations reflecting on our upbringing/our parents' parenting. it was fabulous. and she's cool and also incredibly chill...more so than i.

3. i'm kind of stressed out currently and i think it's because
i'm leaving for dc in like 6 hours
and my bag isn't packed (3 minutes)
and my sleep isn't had (4-12 hours)
and it's too cold to go outside and smoke a j but i wish that i could. mmm.

4. craigslist!

5. dear uchicago,
you torture me and i think you've stunted my growth but i also think you're awesome, mostly for bringing together such a crazy group of people that i have grown to love and miss.
ali

6. currently reading: "modest_witness@second_millenium.femaleman(c)_meets_concomouse(tm)" by donna haraway

7. currently wearing: blue pants with hole in the knee; mismatched striped socks; black tshirt; yellow and white striped shirt; green and green striped sweater; red flannel shirt; bahamas hat.

8.
EYES
NOSTRILS
SILENT SCREAM.


now i can go pack. the world is so big!

why it's called "high"
because you are lifted softly off the ground
and for a little while
you just keep falling nowhere
floating high

what are we waiting for?
love or the apocalypse.